…a quarter to three, no one in the place except you and me….yeah, that’s sorta how it feels. All by myself in this, and I guess that’s just how it is. I’m looking for work, everyday. Even doing a little here and there. But the feeling that I’m all alone in this, is the thing that’s so hard to deal with.
I have friends. I have family. All encouraging of course. I have two little kitty cats that hang out and try to keep me company. I putter and tinker. I have projects. But overall, I’d have to say that I’m a complete failure at being unemployed. YIKES!!! So… hurry up and give me a job! Because it’s a quarter to three and there’s no one in the place… except me and some bartender named…Joe?

I didn’t graduate from college, but I took a couple of semesters. (I tell everyone that I graduated from H.K.U.)  That being…Hard Knocks University. (where else?) But I did take a Psychology course. If any of you did, then you may have heard about the dog, the bell and the drool…yes? OK, they had a dog and right before they fed the dog, they would ring a bell. They did this everyday over a long period of time, so eventually when they rang the bell the dog would start to salivate, knowing food was coming and he was gonna get to eat! In this scenario….I’m the dog. I’ve worked for 40-some years. I’m conditioned to feel good when I work. I’m productive, earning my way…responsible, smart, yada yada yada.  Now I’m not working. I’m looking for work. I’m cleaning my house, baking, trying to keep the old chins up. But I still feel like the biggest screw-off alive. That’s what years of training will do!

The morning after you are let go from a job that you loved and held for 9 years feels pretty rough. I mean, I’ve got NO experience in losing jobs because I’ve NEVER been fired before. ( I guess I wasn’t actually fired from this one…just “Let go” ) Anyway, as far as really being fired, I was…twice when I was a kid, but never as an adult and not from a dream job which was what I had at MillerWhite. BTW…If you need a great marketing firm take your biz there. Just don’t expect to see me…(she wrote as tears streamed down face. LOL!)

Well well, it’s here! That cold day in hell…you know the one they always talk about? Just lost my job at MillerWhite. Been there 9 years. Got the word about a half hour ago from one of the owners. Don’t want to say more than they are a good company and I wish them the best.
I have only been unemployed a few times in the last 31 years. I started this website last year when they had to cut my hours.  I looked for work everyday and with all my experience and work history AND being quite good at my job…the best I could do was a PT job at Dollar General.
This website, (which I built BTW…) has demos and some samples of my work. Of course I realize that AV Production is a little limited, but I can do lots of stuff! Office admin, any kind of radio station work, traffic, billing, web design, pet sitting…washing your car LOL…anyways, just when you think all is well, something comes up and bites your booby!
Keep an “eye out for me” as the old pirate’s joke goes and say a prayer.